hi. gg to blog before gg back to camp again. tml got early detail. yest when i come back from camp so shaq until i sleep before 9pm. while watching tv then online then just rest on bed then sleep le. very tired. that's all for yest. today just a bad day for me. early morning got bad things happen to me. lost my personal file which haf my personal documents. very impt to me. searched the whole place and morning for the file. even when i lost file still need to wash vehicle go out for detail which is not mine. so tired and shaq and hungry. lost the file ask around whether they got take by mistake or saw it. they never even bother to help and concern ask. ask them say never see or take. so selfish of them. i will rem this incident and saw thru their true colours. that's why i dun like my unit mt line. management very bad. well later gg back to camp le. sianz rite. for me i tired and hungry. mum not at home yet and cook dinner. cooked maggie mee eat tahan a bit. well thur and fri is leave for me. and let me rest. dec duty roster is out. sianz haf duty on the 31st. last day of the month. cannot celebrate countdown. sob sob. but i am free on the 24th and 25th. Christmas. yeah that's all. gg to prepare le. ciao~

Updated@9:09 PM

hi guys. gg to blog before gg back to camp. tml morn got early. sianz rite. so lazy and tired gg back but wat to do. today spend worthwhile. fellowship wif my cgm and attend the svc. pst phil sermon though short but is solid and real impact. went home shortly after fellowshipping and lunch. just now online for a while before take a nap. will meet edwin go back to camp. he grad to be a combat diver le. happy for him. coming thur will haf joan chalet at downtown east. will be gg. hopefully i will enjoy there and a good celebration. yeah that's all. gg to prepare then go out le. ciao~!~!

Updated@7:45 PM

hi time to blog le. am in camp now doing my duty. sorry for the past 2 days never blog. come back tired online watch tv then sleep le. 2 days ago even haf migraine after bath. headache until sleep after eating panadol. today duty tml morn gg back home. after that go church. night time haf to come back camp again as mon morn got early. sob. my weekend is spend like that. now wif my buddy in camp doing duty together. be watching movies eat sleep and slack. like chalet like that. life for me is getting better le. as the days goes by, memories begin to fade. but i will not forget the deep mem0ry that set inside my mind. hopefully today will just pass by and nth will happen. everything will go smoothly. tml be gg to church. yeah finally can sunday go church le. pst phil will be coming and preach the word and his band is down too. can't wait to attend the svc and the playing of the band. one of my fav band. enjoyed their songs and also often sing during svc. tml will be a long day for me but i used to it le. God will strengthen me and showered me wif favour & grace. wonder how next month duty roster is how? wondering and pondering. hopefully i will not haf duty on the festive days. or else i will complain le. dec all the festive days fall on the weekends. btw my posting out news somehow like confirmed like that. still waiting for the confirmation news. hopefully can post out asap. yeah that's all. waiting to haf my lunch le. ciao~! blog again.....

Updated@10:52 AM

hi ppls out there. decide to blog after watching tv. just now watched the star idol. interesting show. mostly from tp or ntu. saw one female constantant very look alike my friend. same school somemore. today just a cooling weather. early morning rained heavily while gg out from home. today still not that bad. just a normal detail and then slack. my chief not ard again. how we wish he not ard, camp will be like heaven. we really enjoy ourselves when he is nt ard. dunno and guessing when is he back. btw starting today we hafing remendial trg for out ippt. we need to get gold. everyone cannot get and we need to go for extra trg. on mon wed fri. sad rite. somemore after working hrs. sianz 1/2. even we drivers also need to get gold. we not divers mah. pay also never give us more. haa! after that went home together wif the living in the west ppls. hai~ just a few sad things bother me. feel so unfair. well hopefully the person can clarify and make the matter clear and not feel bother stress and hurt. for me i really treasure frezships wif ppls. even those just get to know one. for me i like caring showing concern for ppl. care to their needs. aren't we christians should be like this? showing and pouring love to ppls out there. hopefully the friendship is back again and still stands. yeah!!! going to sleep soon hopefully. gg to do quiet time b4 take a nap. later watching soccer. nitez!!! ciao~!~!

Updated@10:08 PM

hi ppl out there. thanks for reading and commenting my blog. well just a normal blog which i use it to express my words. just finish bathing and back from church. i attended my churchwide bible seminar. very good preaching about the Tabarnacle. solid meat for us to chew. life for me has turned around and changed after this seminar. after the seminar had briefing before i head home. am very tired and eyes turning dry and heavy. cry during the seminar. really touched me and wake me up and use me in a greater way. past things that i done really pull me down. today in camp not bad. after detail slack until fall out. btw good news i very long never fall out at 4+ in the afternoon. thank god for that. i managed to go church early had dinner b4 that. praise the lord for that. had good seat and attend the seminar. tml gotta haf a long day again. gotta wake up early tml morn. God use me in a mighter and higher way!!! don't wan to stick in my current comfort zone. stretch me mould me send me ppl to guide discipline me. that's all i wan. wanted to be wif Him. fellowshipping wif Him. that's all. tired le eyes turning in le. nitez!!! ciao~!~!

Updated@12:37 AM

hi guys!!! blogging time... today free to blog. for yr info i am ok le. after a good night rest and good sleep. yeah. today after duty in camp yest got off for today to repaid my Tekong trip. delayed until 9.30am then left camp. anyway nvm lah extra off for us. thinking and pondering along the way out to the main gate. was drizzling along and floor is wet. walked carefully in case i fall. remember the story of my friend Hannah. she fall down while it is raining and fall down the stairs. that hurts. meet my friend go home together and then i went bought lunch and titbits. reach home and nua the whole day. feel like gg out but lazy to do so. weather today so cool and nice weather to sleep. nested at home and had afternoon nap. very long never had the chance to sleep on a weekday afternoon sleeping at home. haa!!! wake up find out my sister ard and asked her out for dinner, but she has appointment le. waiting for my mum back home then. btw tml is the last paper for those taking O'level. science mcq... hereby wish them all the best for the paper and do well to level up the marks for the whole science paper. huixian, rachael, mikki, eunice, rina and those taking... keep u all in my prayer list. jia you.... yeah that's all. maybe blog again later... ciao~!~!

Updated@5:40 PM

hi. i blog again. well i gotta say smth about my previous blog entry. i dun care who will see my blog even if i write anything bad or good. is my blog and i shall declare everything and say things that i wanna blog. previous blog entry are the feelings that i wanna declare. i dun care who will comment my blog. till now i still feel sad and down rejected feelings. "sorry' will not cure everything and really time is the thing that can heal. this issue is both hands clap. not to either side. so dun blame yrself for that for causing the problem. i hate the feeling of that. being threatened being nice being concern being good to ppl when at the end of the day i end up nth. WHY??? definitely i will not want to be third-party, causing a stir in the relationship but don't really blame me for that. love is blind and fated to the person u be wif. i enjoyed the times we spend together gg out as frezs whole grp. i really wanna be a good friend a good brother to her. is that difficult? why the sudden change of attitude and way of talking? many questions and changes i wanted to ask? just becos he is back and then put me aside le. i did not regret to know both of ya and get close together gg out. but really a short time span. how i wish i can turn back the time!!!! as for now i really try to take it and put it down. as wat the chinese always say. NA DE Qi, FAN DE XIA. mixed feelings now and feeling down and no words can describe the feelings i feeling now. today just a bad day for me. sunday haf to stay in camp do duty. missed celebrations wif my grandma and family side. my two close frezs bday celebrations. and plus the issue. all fall on the same day. truthfully while typing i teared. well i am a emotional person. as for now just let time heal my deep wound and bad things just stay away from me and LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!! ciao~!

Everything in life is temporary, because everything changes... Nothing can remain so valuable as memory. Let the best remain forever and let the sad ones go away with the wind..

Updated@7:54 PM

hi dudes and babes out there. surprise to see me blogging nw hor!!! am now in camp serving my duty. sob spend my sunday in camp whereas outside haf so many events for me to attend. grandma bday party & 2 close friends bday celebrations & svc plus fellowship wif my cgm. well i haf to stick to my camp here. boring and slack life. just finish hafing my lunch and then come here online. just online to kill my time here. wonder how the life out there. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA GERALDINE AND JAMES!!!! this morn had talk wif eunice and rina. well good things finally come to an end. treasured and remembered the times we had together. am will be just a brother to them. maintain a brother-sister relationship. last night while doing my quiet time and online. recalled what rina told me the issue. i cried and teared. no warning or signal is coming. really a surprise to me and i really cannot take it and swallow the pain at first. but wat to do. it gotta to be settle one day just that the day draw very fast and near. well i dunno wat i am saying just spontaneously say and declare my feelings. i never regret in knowing eun and rina although at the end i haf to part wif them. wait till one day when things settle le i shall be back as normal. time will heal the wound anchored in my heart!!! that's all folks i will be fine and back to normal. ciao~!~!

Updated@1:30 PM

elloz~ ppl out there. been 2 wks since i last blog. well i am still fine and good. been busy nowadays and going out and camp and church. just finish reading many blogs. so therefore decide to blog. today sat at home spend my one weekend day resting at home. for the past week be at Tekong. was at there for 3 days. tired and dirty and smelly. finally when reach home. rested on my nested bed and good bath and nice home made food. hopefully coming mon got off for my Tekong trip. tml back to camp for duty. my extras getting lesser. pray that i will not haf more extras to do and no more burnt weekends. tml sunday so busy day and many events yet cannot attend all of them. svc day tml & grandma's bday and my 11 for Christ grp. geraldine and james tan bday. i really getting spending less time wif them le yet now cannot join in the bday celebration wif them. sob. hereby wish them HAPPY BIRTHDAY. well serving ns really restrict me a lot of enjoyment and freedom. btw rem i mention about posting out to Tuas naval base instead of staying at my current unit. praise the lord. god really open door for me. the MT chief just happen to pop by just last week. happen to meet him and he get my particulars down. he said he will tell my chief and ask about the posting out. really now at least i know there is some hope and news about my posting out. me pray that i can post out asap. God, i pray that ya really show me the favour and grace for this matter. been praying and asking ya for this matter. gtg liao. gg to haf dinner wif my mum and her frezs. hopefully i can blog fast again. heex ciao!!!

Updated@5:46 PM

hi dudes and babes out there!!! been like 3 wks since i last blog. time flies!!! sorry for never blog. lazy and busy. think the trend of blogging for me outdate le. well just happen to visit frez blog so thought of blogging for myself. life is still the same for me. tml will be a brand new week for me yeah. btw all the best to those taking O'level tml esp eunice loh, mikki and rachael, huixian and those that i missed out. keep ya all in my prayer... JIA YOU!!! and to those taking exam too those in uni and JCs. everyone is having exam. eXAM period. today went for svc. sermon is great. i was impacted by the word. great msg. after svc we haf fellowship at the coffeeshop. had two rounds of meal. so hungry... after that all left for work and study for their exam. for me i free. i acc mikki waiting for her tution wif her team ic for her maths. i stayed a while before i head home. well next 2 sunday will not be coming to church. gotta do duty in camp. sob. wat a bad planout for my duty for the mth of Nov. well wat to do. serving ns is like that... yeah that's all i haf to say. gotta ciao and sleep early. waking up early tml. nitez!!!! (=

Updated@11:42 PM