hihi. back again. erm pardon me for my previous post. i guess i was really affected by this friend of mine. erm hopefully all things will turn out to be good. yeah. cheers~

well had some touching up for my project. been lacking behind. need to do lots more. watched tv and dinner and titbits just now. dunno wat to do next le. erm aiya today just so confused and affected by this friend. maybe after tonight sleep, tml will be a brand new day to start. later gotta pray for that. yeah.

someone had a bday celebration earlier on. hope u haf a good time and though u never get to eat yr fav cheesecake but dun worry, i will acc u and eat together wif u. so sweet right. hee.

yeah dun eat too much and become fatter wor. lolx. must exercise and on diet wor. =>

Updated@11:09 PM

hi. back again to blog!!! erm the previous post i post about friend are hard to come by and those friends that are yr friends for long and difficult times. well i already experienced a friend whom i really wannato get to know more and close suddenly change of attitude and approach. really make me realise who u are and how much u put into this friendship. u know who i am talkin to. well for ya sake i already told u wat i wan and how i will treat u. yet this time is a big-time disappointment. well very sad we haf to end this way. well well. i really got no words to describe how i feel and see this picture.

ok kevin. this friendship is just a part of the life u gg to experience. if u willing to let it go and go forth in a stronger mighty way. u will grow and never be the same as before. these are words of affirmation to me by God.

last night i prayed about it. for me i really a kind of guy which care and concern for ppl, the ppl ard me must be happy, free of troubles, enjoy what they hafing that time. well i gotta move on.

well well let's dun talk about that matter le. let bygones be bygones..

gotta be dinner time. mum cooking so delicious meal again. the 2nd part of reunion dinner i had. nice nice food. hee. thank God for blessing the food and the later good time of quality time at the dinner table. amen. => ciao~

Updated@6:29 PM

hihi. back again to blog. erm had some comments regard to my previous post. well yesterday had a long day. morn slack at home till early afternoon. act need to go suntec nokia care centre to collect my phone but lazy resting on bed. after a while then decide to go then. haha. went ard suntec while waiting to collect my phone. nokia service always that slow haha.

went specs shop regard my spec. ask the adjustment etc. good spec. good spec really ex. seen some of the designs. tempted to buy but ex lor. too bad i am studying and no income. went to other shops. had some discovery and update me wif some latest craze and stuff.

btw i think i quite "suan ku" quite a lot of things in town that has been for a while i did not know. hai really quite long never go town or i should say i dun always go town nowadays. been hospitalised and been either sch church etc.

there are times i really tempted to wear contact lenses. i prefer myself dun wear spec and wear contacts. but everyone not one say i wear spec ugly. hai so confusing lolx. i will be getting my previous frameless spec later. changed my lense as my degree increase le. old liao. really gotta take care of my eyes.

wow been like 2 wks never attend class, start sch. finally my student's life back again. a bit monday blues now. haha. i prayed to God please show me the favours, friends ard me will guide me help me cos i been lacking behind. got quite a lot to catch up. i wanna score and do well for my studies. i know it is never too late to start afresh. i thanks all these in advance that u will bring me through it. amen.

been resting and surfing net. clearing emails, msning, and of cos read ppls' blog. got a lot of friends' blog to read. mine really bad compared to them. mine just a simple plain blog. hee. i begin to love blogging. try to everyday update at least once. read ppls' blog really understand how they feel, wat they do that day and the person's character and personality. and those friends who are christians, their blog is a must read for me cos they always relate verses from the bible to teach him/her, revelation that always come to bring us to the next higher level. i really love the love that God has planted for us. always treasured the time i prayed speak in tongues and sing love song to Him.

"wow" is the word i can describe the presence , the atmosphere. really amazing that God has lifted me from where i was and bring me to where i am now though i encountered countless tribulations, obstacles. Thanks!!!

ok i think i will stop here. gg to haf my breakfast and do some reading up. thank god for the new life, the new man u have give me. i will treasure it always. ciao~!

Updated@11:00 AM

hihi i am blogging. hehe well yest had a long day. morn wake up. do household chores. chatted wif lynn before rushing for combined cg. cool suppose to be 2 cg end up become 3 cg. we never had cg. we had praise & worship plus games only. think this week no cg sermon. we had great time play the games. great fellowship among members. good time and communication wif each other. yeah we played this game. " Shi Zi Ru Kou " . eat as we walk ard places game. suppose to link the name of the food to the next food as we walk ard places. we given $10 budget and we suppose to link as many edible food as possible. following are our "link" food. we won in the end.

Kua Zi(melon seeds) -> Zi Cai(seaweeds) -> Cai Tao Kuey(friend carrot cakes) -> Gui Hua Cha(bottle drink) -> Cha Ye Dan(tea egg) -> Dan Ta(eggtarts) -> Ta-Ta Jiang(long john silver's tata sauce) -> Jiang Mian(vege noodle) -> mian bao(bread) -> Bao Zi(bun) -> Zi Teng(paper sweet) -> Teng Zhen(sweet shaped like needle) -> Zhen Zhu(bubble tea pearls) - Zhu Si Bao(pork-floss bun) 14 items within $10 budget but we over time 20 mins.

but end up we are the winner of the game. $50 swensen vouchers. after cg we had lao yu sheng. two grps. enjoyed the food and fellowship. after that take photos then stayed for a while before we left. i left for funan it mall. collect scratch win card. won $88 cash. not bad. highest is $888 lor. i waited quite a while there. after that i went over to suntec to service my phone. waited even long to service lor. the queuing time really bad. when not bad when my turn came.

this lady is friendly and help me lots. thanks so much. thank god for ppl's favour. changed my joystick even is not spoilt but is rusty le. i updated the software cos the phone very lag and slow. she helped me transfer my smses to the card. i wanna keep the smses i had. for some purpose of cos. today later i will go collect my phone back. so fast lor. thought like mon or tues will take back. hopefully later will not wait for too long. she chatted wif me while the my phone is inside. she stayed near me and asked about my details. haha. the approach quite funny.

after that dinner at foodcourt.then go to dbs bank deposit cash. bad day. my money kana eaten and not successful transaction. think i never put neatly the cash and then kana eaten. hai~ sigh~ well called them already and waiting for their call back to me for the answer. after that meet lynn for movie. watched hannibal. the movie to me ok lor but not too good as the previous one. not recommended. hee. enjoyed the time wif her watch movie and after that. i will treasured it.

came across this passage from someone's blog. the following as follows :

"People come and go in my life. Those who really stayed made me realise how important they are to me. And I thank God for his grace to give me such great people. Those who went, I'm glad to have passed a phase with you, I'm always here though. Treasure the people, don't take them for granted"

this passage very true and meaningful... that's why i really treasure my friends ard me. even though they may hurt me. well that's life. haf to grow thru this phrase and learn from it and go on to the next level. i wanna be stretched, increase my capacity of my heart, on fire faith for god.

ok quite long le. tired liao. gg to have my lunch and breakfast~ ciao~

Updated@12:53 PM

hihi. i just finish watch tv. had quality time wif family. signed some forms for the claims for the hospitalisation fees. well dun think will sleep early today. waiting for someone to talk to.

btw, just now evening went bugis eat steamboat wif friends. suppose is 'lao yu sheng' but no place and less ppls. so end up steamboat. first time steamboat at bugis there. near the shaw house. the food there not bad. had good time there.

i went home after that. i should say. rush home. i need to adjust my new specs. not used to wear new specs and feel uncomfortable. yeah afternoon i make my new specs. quite nice, but till now i dun think suit me. i used to see myself wear frameless specs. haha. anyway my frameless specs also changed. changed the degree. gg to get it prob on mon. i exchanged my previous bought contact lenses and get this new spec. still not that bad. new look. thinking to cut my hair cos my mum keep nagging me to haf a decent hairstyle. shall think about it.

ok. tml is cg day. meetin afternoon at cityhall. gg to funan claim my scratch win card and think gg to svc my phone at suntec. a bit lazy to go suntec. and will miss my hp. should i go svc. cos i find my phone now very laggy. get more lag and slow when change screen and open msgs or files. but still can use. aiya hp must always be perfect one. hee.

cmbd cg tml at riverwalk. bs there. fun fun. then sunday is svc. and cny 'ren ri' must lao yu sheng this yr. haf a good start and rise up prosperity. haha!!!

ok gg to qtQTqtQtqt le! can't wait to have good quality time wif Him... ciao~

Updated@12:16 AM

hihi. i waiting to go for my later eye appointment. was surfin net and resting. yeah yest nite i chatted wif lynn. i enjoy talking to her. haha. how i make u fall for me?? lolx~ well just let time prove it for u. well today seem so lethargic and bored. yet i haf some many things to do.

waiting for mum buy lunch back. ok le. i gotta catch some beauty sleep. pig ar!!! sleep sleep...

p.s : sorry ar no mood to blog...


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Updated@1:39 PM

hii. i back from outside. went to watch movie. norbit. quite lame movie. funny and funny. quite tired now. bought the fruit tree fruit juice back. was thirsty and wanna drink healthy stuff.

tml gg to my eye appointment. get my new specs. quite cool one. hee. maybe gg to service my phone if i not that lazy. and to take my scratch and win card from the lap top i purchased. tml will be a busy day for me. evening will haf lao yu sheng wif friends. after that hopefully not gg out liao..

gg to wash up and qt time then sleep wanna spend more time wif god these few days since someone is not in spore. take care ar. enjoy yrself. me miss u lots. => ciao~

Updated@12:48 AM

hihi. today just another day spend at home. been thinking about smth pondering me. after that prayed thru it. lifted it to god, repent before him and received revelation. the feelings is nice. the atmosphere is there. God really works and He really speak to me.. praise the lord for that..

well today had some discussions wif someone. i really sorry for the things i done. i shouldn't annoy u or smth. i will not do it again. if u see this entry, pls feel accept my apology.

i know it is not a big matter that i create. but for me i just dun wan any flaws or bad things that affect the relationship. hope u understand my views and situations. =>

know u not feeling well. take care and rest well. if u really sick, gotta see doc k. my turn to remind u and say u to see doc le.

i been praying praying about this relationship. i really serious and putting in lots of efforts into it. thus i am afraid in the end will turn out to be good or wat i expected of. u know this is human thinking.. i always pray God will show me the way, give me the wisdom to initiate this relationship, guide me show me the correct way to handle. yeah i am the man for u. i gotta guide guard and govern this relationship. perhaps i am a little bit rushed into it. i am sorry for this.

well i will wait for the day to come. the right timing for me to step into this journey wif u. i know i am not the best brother or man u can see but i am always here acc u help u care for u love u more and more each day. u should know wat i mean. well God is our provider the leader in our relationship. amen.

well that's all i wanna say. hope u read up this post and let me know how u feel about it... ciao~

Updated@9:30 PM

hihi. morn. i just wake up not long ago. haha. pig year. sleep a lot. think gg to haf a movie outing wif my cgm. be watching protege. think quite nice. but act wanna spend my day wif someone. waiting for her to wake up and give me a answer. whey someone! faster wake up...

everyone start sch and work le. cny mood over le. i starting sch next mon. back to sch life. act me quite long never go back sch. haha. ard 2 wks liao. gg to submit my mc. and getting back used to sch life. i been lagging behind. gotta ask my classmates for help..

ok that's all. just a short post. wash up and breakfast cum lunch.... ciao~

Updated@11:41 AM

hihi. i saw this when i go to carol's blog. the following are abstract from her blog. enjoy. very long. read it and enjoy mine blog songs. hee


What is love?

There's the noble way of saying that goes:

"Love is when you want the person you love to be happy. And that doesn't mean you have to have that person. When he/she's happy, you're happy."

There's also the quite cliche way:

"Love is letting go. If you're meant to be, you and him/her will end up together after all. If you're not meant to be, even if you and him/her are together now, you guys will not be happy."

There's also the dreamy way:

"Love is when all day all night long, he/she is always on your mind. You keep thinking what is he/she doing right now."

Then there's also another way:

"Love is when you see him/her, your heart race, your face grow hot and your palms clammy. You stutter when you talk, you keep swallowing saliva, trying to stop stammering."

But, WHAT is love?

Well, this question had been on my mind for quite a while already. But I believe each person has their own set of definitions for this question. Hmm... What is yours? I don't really have my own set of definitions yet, but I hope I'd find it soon. Haha.

I didn't randomly chance upon this topic, but well, something, or rather, someone told me something and I just started having this "What is love" questioning within my mind.

Apparently, this someone just broke up with her boyfriend not long ago - about 3 months ago? And when I chatted with this someone, hmm, let's name this someone TIRAMISU. I was chatting with tiramisu about 2 months back and I questioned about what she is doing now. Tiramisu said she's fine, and yadda yadda. And I just so happened to ask, "Are you still with XXX now?"

And surprisingly, she said, "No, break already."

So, naturally, 90% of the people will be like me, popping the next question: "Why??"

And Tiramisu answered saying she felt the relationship was getting stagnant, and she sees no point in carrying on with the relationship, thus the break up. So I was like, "Hmm.. Okay.."

And I just happened to be so random and said something."

I thought it's because of 3rd party. Haha."

But I didn't know that it was part of the reason too. She answered that when she was still in the relationship, she already had a crush on another guy. So I asked even more randomly if she and that guy are together now (note: it's about 1 month after the break up with the previous boyfriend already).

And she said yes.

And I was like "WHAT???" But I didn't say that to her. And she replied, "But I still think of him (the previous bf)."

Even more "WHAT???"

Well, I felt a little sympathy toward the previous boyfriend. I mean, it's not even like 1 year since the break up and tiramisu has a new boyfriend now? And I believe it's not just one day only, I believe it's about 1 or 2 weeks. And she said the previous boyfriend knows!

So what? Just because you broke up with the previous one entitles you to get a new one now?

Theoretically, yes.

But what is with the "I still think of him though,"??

It's like a 2 and a half year relationship. And once it's dunzo, for less than a month, you can get yourself another boyfriend?

I really suspect your feelings for the previous boyfriend actually.

"I just want to move on with my life," was what she said after awhile.

So does moving on equates to getting a new boyfriend? If yes, I rest my case.

I mean, I don't know exactly where I'm driving at, but all I feel is that, how can you be with someone so fast after your last breakup?

Don't you feel you're like a flirt, a player? You haven't even given yourself a chance to let the old relationship settle down and you're already into a new one.

It's so unfair to the both guys.

So is your so called "love" until this limit?

Once a relationship is over, you start all over again - as if you're drinking a can of drink. Once you're done with the drink, you crush the can and dump it in the trash can. And if you're thirsty again, you get yourself a new can.

Is that so?

So is your heart a box of 6 packs? 12 packs? or 24 packs?

Sigh.

Everyone who is in a relationship, 99% will tell each other the 3 lovey-dopey-sure-make-your-heart-melts words.

"I love you."

So what does the "love" in the sentence meant?

No, I'm not saying there can't be any breakups.

No, I'm not saying neither can you go on to a new relationship in less than 1 month.

But what I'm saying is, why go into a new relationship when the old relationship is like a glass of milo that you've just finished stirring so the mixture and water will blend properly together - it hasn't settle down, and it's still causing motion to your emotions.

I can only say,so your "love" can only go this far?

Once it's over, you say bye bye.

Shouldn't it be like a song - you can finish playing it, and perhaps, you may not replay it straight away, but it stays in your harddisk. You may forget the song existed in your harddisk, but it is still there. And maybe, when the song, to you, is long over time, you can then choose to delete it.

Of course, there's the option of immediate deletion of the song once it's over, or maybe, half over, because you felt it's not a nice song.

Fine.

But deleting it immediately after you've heard it - and it's a song that you really liked during the playing - it's so... weird.


HaPpY nEw yEaR!!!

Updated@11:24 PM

hihi i am here to blog. erm just now went to member hse celebrate her bday cum ban nian. when we reach. we had steamboat. fried and traditional one. very full and enjoyable there. most of the 2 cgm went and some of her friends. my member's mum very young. look like 30 plus only and fashionable. we cannot see like is my member mum. we all shocked when she come in the hse. we all never greet her. haha. so pai seh. including my pcgl. lolx. we stayed still ard 6pm. we left. suppose wanna meet gal and clicks watch movie. in the end. no. sob. went home wif my cgm.

had a good and long talk wif him. plus microsoft office cd from him. need it to do my proj. ok that's all. gg to haf my dinner now. ciao~


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Updated@8:57 PM

hihi peeps!!! i now waiting and preparing to go out. gg to my ex cgm hse to celebrate her bday. meeting 3pm at bishan mrt. cum hse visiting bah. wake up ard 12pm. i did not know i sleep till so late. lol. nice quality sleep..

btw i done some new changes to my blog. ppl go check it out though not very good. give me more time.. i promised someone i will not make my blog fanciful and messy. simple yet good and nice can liao. dunno today wat is the programme will be. as for now is member hse. i wanna watch movie....

ok i gtg prepare, doll up nice nice. ciao~

Updated@1:18 PM

hihi. i just back from house visiting. just now went to my last time nanny hse. erm not bad. get to see my da jie jie there when i was small. again all tease me again. cos when i was small and young. i was very naughty and playful. create troubles. from late morn till just now. cab home.

dunno why today very tired. as wat the taxi driver say. this yr is the year of the pig.. haha. i really wanna go out. anywhere. shopping, movies, house visitings etc but just feel tired and lazy a bit. maybe due to raining bah. make me feel drowsy. my mum too also wanna go home rest.

waiting for mum cook noodles. had late breakfast till now. now is 4.40pm le. i haf not eaten lunch. HUNGRY!!!

dunno whether to go out or stay at home today. *ponders*

wonder how is someone doing at m'sia?

iwillwaitforuuntilusayyes!!!

Updated@4:33 PM

entries for 18th Feb 07 ------> 1st day of cny

hihi. happy new year everyone!!!!!!!! wake up quite early to prepare things, and then wait for my relatives to come my hse. quite tired. gg to be a long day. well is a day of reunion of close ones, great fellowshipping wif one another. ' lian luo gan qing' a few days of savouring the fried crackers, titbits, etc. i love bah kua. love love it. hee.
morn to early afternoon is my father side come my hse. later after that is gg to my grandma hse to 'bai nian'.gg to stay there the whole day bah. act got outings to go out tml but lazy to go out other places le. see how lor. praise the lord and lif out this day to God. let me be the light that shine forth during this cny festive period. amen. =>
gotta ciao already. prepare prepare... 9.00am


hihi. just finish watch tv. just nw back home ard 9 plus. before that was at grandma hse. had great time and fellowship there. took family foto and the whole big family photo too. as usual dinner every year. eat very full as grandma cooked dinner always very delicious and nice. after that my relatives all gamble.i was at the side support and see them play. at the same time eat crackers and drink yakult.
today another day great time spent. long yet enjoyable day. tml another long day.. morn gg to my last time nanny place. we every year go there once to lian luo gan qing. this year also no differ. afternoon gg to my father side aunt hse. i got lots of friends hse to go. hee collecting hong baos spree. tues my ex cgm bday cum hse visiting. gg to haf another great fellowship there again. thank god for everything.
this festive season wanna watch movie. any kind souls wanna watch movie with this dude here? my eyes are ok to watch. i am indirectly 'forced' to stay at home to rest. i am ok le. i know my situation. act cny eve and day got go out wif frezs but in the end never go. sob sob. anyway is ok. this yr just be good boy stay at home. dun spend money and acc family!!! ciao~ 11.30pm

Updated@12:32 AM

hihi i am back to blog liao. previously use myspace blog but then i think i will change back to here le. gg to blog my entries from myspace. from 15th to 17th Feb 2007. thereafter is here le.

15th Feb 07

oh no just now i blog very long but i try to post it everything gone.. aiya should copy and paste first. sob..
anyway first time blog here. make it short cos my hands tired le. just now i type very long and long. take this entry to thank those who came and visit me in hospital. really appreciate it. specially to gal. BIG thanks x3 to u.
make a few friends at the hosptial. and nurses there. and make me realise how life is so fragile and short.
cny is coming. i still haf not get finish my clothes.. sob. gotta rest at home..
this period at hospital i quite free and bored. i been praying and seeking the lord. i wan greater and bigger breakhru. i am super hungry to serve help rise up to another level in cg and ministry. my walk wif God will never be the same as before. u are first in my life. i fear u. i seek u i need u i hungry for u more and more each day. pls renew me strengthen me. anoint me wif yr grace show me favours help me in any area of my life. i am wholly depended onto u. dear GOD.
ok my hand tired le. gotta rest le. so sad later cannot go for svc ltr. gotta rest. ciao~ 3.10pm


16th Feb 07

happy and tired day!!!

hihi. just managed finish supper/dinner and bath. today nt bad. sleep until late morning. afternoon appointment at nuh to see my eye specialist. my condition gg better le. praise the lord for that. my current eye drops and medicine can be discarded le. now using this new eye drop. cause money again to buy. so expensive lor. one small bottle cost $26 wor. heart pain..my next appointment is next fri afternoon again. anyway can't wait for my eye to fully recover. ppl do continue pray for me k. i also do pray too.
after my appointment, meet gal and clicks watch movie. watched the follow the law.the spore movie. directed by jack neo. not bad the movie. quite funny and entertaining though my eyes a bit hurt. enjoy their company too. thxs god for the great fellowship. i will treasure this friendship even more yeah.
tml is cny eve le. gg to stay at home bah. nite haf 'huo kuo' dinner. can't wait to haf reunion dinner wif family. this yr i dun think i will go out le after dinner. gotta rest and rest and spend quality time wif family. sorry friends who asked me out. disappoint u all this yr. hope u understand.. cny coming. new clothes, new beginning , more breakthrus and responsibilities. older 1 yr le. smile~ 1.20am


17th Feb 07 ---> cny eve

hihi. i just blog a while. today not bad. stayed at home rest. wake up late morning to work work. house work. still haf last min ' da shao zhu' to do. so tired and bored. now gg to rest first. tonight gotta haf a long night. praise the lord for today. ciao~ 5pm

hihi. home alone. family went wif relatives to watch fireworks or go chinatown. me stay at home cos gotta rest and the place will be smoky and alot of ppls thus will affect my eyes. hai so bored and sianz stay at home. gal still outside. waiting for her call. just now had a good hearty reunion dinner wif family. eat very fulfilling and full. *burps* *oooppsss*
later 10.30pm got the cny show on tv. gg to watch alone and spend my new year. gg to pray later b4 12am. wanna spend the time wif God.
tml cny le. gg to busy the whole day. collect hongbaos and be entertaining lots of ppls. my relatives. gg to meet my long long time see cousins nieces and once a year relatives too. yeah. gg to 10.30pm liao. tv time!!! ciao~ 10.20pm

Updated@12:25 AM